Living in a society where you feel as if every part of you is socially awkward, is one of the most horrible feelings. Society made the choice of whether short or tall girls looked best. Ok, so I might be a few inches over 5'2. But those few inches made in so that I am not cute in the eyes of the world. Society has pictures everywhere of girls a waist measurement being around 20 inches. Again, a few extra inches made it so that I am not viewed as sexy through the eyes of society. The same concept applies to my legs and arms. My hair wont straighten on any given day and actually stay that way throughout. A woman never feels fully confident unless her hair is taken care of. Therefore, I am never fully confident because it goes up into a bun by the end of the school day. Society had made every girl want to be the same girl in terms of the types of clothes they wear, the body style they have, the way they talk, their lifestyle choices, etc. But those girls that cannot change into what's expected shouldn't have to feel socially awkward on their own fucking planet. & don't even pull that "ignore what society thinks" bullshit, because it doesnt fucking work. ever.
 So yes, I am a few inches taller than your short cute cheerleader. My waist line might be a tad thicker and my thighs might be a tad wider than most of the girls you see. I wear nice clothes, but no, I don't consider name brands to be a "necessity" in life, nor do I see carrying a big MK bag a necessity either. I dont cake on the makeup and I dont get along with most of the popular kids or the jocks around school.

Even with all these things, I know I am not part of society's attempt at creating Utopian life. I am no where close. But just like every other damn person, I do have feelings. I do have compassion. I do know what love is. I do know what friendship is.
But no matter what, someone will always find a way to make me look like someone who is cruel.

I never know what's gonna happen. Or what else is going to be put on my plate. All I know is that I have so much that I wanna give. I wanna make someone feel like they can count on me. I wanna make someone know that I care about them just as much, if not more than I do myself. I want someone to know that Im loyal. Holy shit, it'd be asking a miracle to happen for someone to simply think Im important.

I love caring about people, but sometimes I want someone to care about me.
to see if im okay
to see how its going
to see if i need help

I love taking care of people,

But sometimes i just want someone to take care of me.